Critical Uncertainties

I am quite caught in the foresighting exercise that we're doing (cramming actually) for our Strategic Technology Planning class. Here, we are tasked to discuss the plausible scenarios for our assigned industry - Amusement Parks (Weeeeeeeeee!). We're through identifying predictable variables and critical uncertainties that will affect/influence the development of amusement parks. Sa wakas, natapos din ang pagaagam-agam tungkol sa lintik na Impact vs. Uncertainty matrix. Darn, that was a loooooooooooong discussion.

(Note: The ff. conversation is not a verbatim transcription.)
Kuya edmund: Mali ito e..mali itong graph. Dapat i-multiply natin yung impact at uncertainty para makuha natin yung value.

Vaj: Oo nga, mali yung graph. Kasi if you'll look at this variable....(malditang chinita tries to follow, looks at the graph and searches the text for description of variables)

Chickboy rogel: Nalilito nga rin ako e. Dapat ba unahin yan o yung pag-eliminate?

Ayie: Oo nga noh, kung mag-eliminate na lang muna para konti na lang yung lalagyan ng impact and uncertainty. Pero wait, anong basis ng elimination? Dapat yung impact and uncertainty.

malditang chinita: E kung baliktarin na lang kaya natin? (All looked at me as if I were some idiot.)

I was referring to the matrix, by the way - to measure certainty instead of uncertainty. Whatever. Blah, blah, blah.

This happened after a 5-hour meeting for another group's project (Marketing Plan), 2 hours of isaw+fishballs+tambay, and 3 hours of foresight discussion over latte. So I am entitled to a weird remark or two. Or maybe, as Vaj has said "It could be the coffee talking."

Now I am inclined to identify my own critical uncertainties:
- Will we finish our projects on time?
- Will we get our well-deserved 1.0?
- Will I survive the next 2 weeks of sleepless nights reading, cramming, and writing?
- Will I finish TM in "flying colors" as I have declared over lunch yesterday?
- Will the Boracay trip with the girls push through? (Sana, sana, sana. Kahit December. Haha.)
- Will Richard Gomez win the senatorial elections? (God forbid.)
- Will Melinda Doolittle win American Idol? (Yes, please.)
- Will I fall in love again? (Ah..eh..busy ako eh. :-P)
- Magkakatuluyan ba sina Jackie at Ely/ Celine at JB sa Maging Sino Ka Man? (Shucks di na ko nakakanood. Yuck, baduyness.)

Mga tanong na walang sagot. Or, as I have learned, wala pang sagot pero pwedeng meron. Basta ganun. Hay...patience is a virtue.

cheers

If sadness were taken in shots
and not in one big gulp,
then I must be an alcoholic.

I love Anne Curtis

I've been trying to catch Maging Sino Ka Man since it started. At first, I was just interested in what the 'new' soap has to offer besides the pretty faces in the promotional ad (with the dramatic shots of the stars' eyes and all).

But Anne Curtis surprised me. I like her character, Celine, best. She has improved her craft alot since her childhood-teenybopper-bulol days. And what can I say, I am now a fan. Call me baduy, or jologs, I don't care. I mean, how can I not love her with these lines:

Yes, I am a slut. But I am the best slut in town!

I am definitely asking for that autograph when I see her. And I want a kiss. Oh what the hell, "Anne, let's just make out."

Breathe me

I like the holidays. As a child, I always looked forward to Christmas and all the gifts that could fit under our Christmas tree. I recently realized, though, that the cold air and the 'idle time' during my vacation leave depressed me. It's like I finally had the time to relax, breathe, and feel what I had been denying for some time now - I am sad.

My sister found a song for me..or rather, she thought of me when she read the lyrics. So I'm sharing it here. My (current) song...

Breathe me by Sia

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times
before
I Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else
to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be
found,
Yeah I think that I might
break
Lost myself again and I feel
unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me,
wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend

Hold me,
wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Childhood Frustrations

My mother said something to me once, and it stuck to me. She said, "Kaya ka ganyan ngayon kasi nung bata ka, hindi ka bata e." She was referring to my being makulit and mababaw. I was "Weee!"-ing over ice cream while clapping my hands when she said that. In my mind, I retorted, "Well, I've decided that I want to stay young at heart, what's wrong with that?"

Being the pensive me, I pondered more about my childhood. I remember being happy. But I also remember when I stopped being a child. When all of a sudden, life became unfair, sad and serious. And now, I thought about all of the things that I wanted back then, but never had. Here are some...

1. I wanted a doll house. Like other girls, I wanted my Barbie dolls to live, cook and party in pink and white houses, too.

2. I wanted to be a ballerina. I just thought how ballet-dancing was so beautiful and graceful. And of course, I wanted to wear those skin tight leotards with the fluffy skirts.

3. I wanted to be Little Miss Philippines. I thought how wonderful it would be to show-off my talents on TV, like all those little girls, with my Mom standing in the audience - mouthing the right answers to Tito Joey's questions. Every year, I'd longingly ask my Mom if it was the year that I'd join. My friends laugh their hearts out when I tell them about this. But I won't deny that I cried myself to sleep when I turned past the contest's allowed age.

4. I wanted cute girly stuff on Christmas. I envy my cousins after we've opened our gifts and I see their stockings, toy make-ups, little purses with stars on them, clips and headbands. All I got were books.

5. This may be a surprise, but I wanted to play basketball. Yes, you read it right. I wasn't all about kakikayan before 16, that's for sure (Hehe..). I grew up in a house with 3 boys as playmates - my brother and my two cousins. All they played with were matchboxes, G.I. Joes, tex and basketball. I used to watch when they played hoops. Gusto ko talagang sumali, pero...babae ako e. :-/

I had a good deal of fun as a child. And even if I wanted to go back, I know it isn't possible. Buti na lang pwedeng mangarap...malay natin, isang araw matuto rin akong mag-basketball. ;)